In all honesty what do I really know about Global Developmental Delay? Not much.
Aside from reading a few materials online and listening to my son’s child psychiatrist, I hold no expertise.
Yet, I’m still here willing to write a little bit about my experiences. Why?
Because being a parent of a child with GDD is tough, tiring, and a basket of disappointment.
While I can’t blame my kid of his condition, I often blame myself for a lot of things. Is it in my DNA? Did we allow him to watch and play too much?
I often feel like a failure when I look at my child. But all these feelings are all for nothing because it will not help him.
Though I’m a fairly negative person, I want to remain optimistic on this one. It’s my child, simple as that.
Regardless of whether he recovers or not, I love him and will support him until my last breath.
His Little Brother
Damian is Tim’s little brother. This one seems to be a “normal” kid developmentally speaking.
Just two years old, and here I am feeling guilty again. I’ve been so focused on Tim that I’m neglecting Damian.
Not on purpose I’m sure.
But I seem to have a shorter fuse when dealing with him.
Truth is, Damian really pushes a few of my buttons. He’s really loud, he hits us, he plays with his milk. You know, what a regular kid usually does. But I can’t seem to give him slack like I do Tim.
Maybe in my narrow little head, I feel like he can understand, though, of course, he can’t.
I need to be better with Damian. I admit that I favor Tim over him for now. But that’s because Tim really needs help.
Damian also needs our help and guidance. I want to be a better father to both my kids. I love them both, but again, I’m only human.
Their Super Mum
My kids are lucky they have a mom like her.
She does everything in the house and she works as a full time social media manager, team leader, and writer.
I’m very lucky to have her by my side. She makes everything easier.
She is the heart and soul of this family.
While I have my head up in the clouds dreaming of investing, Internet Marketing, creating an authority site, she works her butt off into the night to fulfill her duties while the kids are sleeping.
She is a conscientious and hard working employee. Truly an inspiration to every home worker.
I just wish that I can pull my head out of my ass long enough to provide better for her and this family.
She gave up taking the bar this year to really focus on Tim and his therapy.
She basically gave up her dream of becoming a lawyer.
I just wish that I can put into words how much I appreciate her. Then again, if my fuse was short with Damian, it is even shorter with her.
My actions toward her and Damian is a reflection of my true character as a person. I’m volatile, easy to anger, and so very hard to please.
I realize this in introspect. I really do. And I want to be a better father, husband, and person.
If wishes were horses.
But no, everyone of us has flaws. Mine just stick out like a sore thumb. At least, that’s my perception of it all.